What is fear?

Fear is sleeping in your chair
Knowing that if you lay down
You will drown

Fear is waking up every hour
Coughing until you cry
Trying not to suffocate

Fear is believing that if you sleep
You will be tortured and killed
By the mucus you are creating

Fear is coughing until you faint
vomiting up phlegm brown and red
Fear is your body killing you

Fear is not understanding
Why a just and good God
isn't healing you yet