Desperation


It seems that every time I find someone that I feel I could care about,
there is always something in the way. It seems that I am always the one who gets crushed,
and brushed aside, like some medieval diseased leper or something.

I always come out crushed. And depressed.
I want to find a way to get these feelings to stop haunting me. Any way possible.
I've been in love only twice, and I screwed my one and only relationship that I thought would last forever.

All I want is for someone to be there for me. To care for me as I would care for them.
I want my life to end at times. I am beginning to think that I will be alone forever.
With no one to love me. No one to become my mate.


Written at the New Planet Café
Copyright 2003 by pauly hart