The cold hard facts of freezing to death

The cold hard facts of freezing to death
By: Peter Stark

May 2, 2004






When your Jeep spins lazily off the mountain road and slams backward into a snowbank, you don't worry immediately about the cold. Your first thought is that you've just dented your bumper. Your second is that you've failed to bring a shovel. Your third is that you'll be late for dinner. Friends are expecting you at their cabin around eight for a moonlight ski, a late dinner, a sauna. Nothing can keep you from that.

Driving out of town, defroster roaring, you barely noted the bank thermometer on the town square: minus 27 degrees at 6:36. The radio weather report warned of a deep mass of arctic air settling over the region. The man who took your money at the Conoco station shook his head at the register and said he wouldn't be going anywhere tonight if he were you. You smiled. A little chill never hurt anybody with enough fleece and a good four-wheel-drive.

But now you're stuck. Jamming the gearshift into low, you try to muscle out of the drift. The tires whine on ice-slicked snow as headlights dance on the curtain of frosted firs across the road. Shoving the lever back into park, you shoulder open the door and step from your heated capsule. Cold slaps your naked face, squeezes tears from your eyes.

You check your watch: 7:18. You consult your map: A thin, switchbacking line snakes up the mountain to the penciled square that marks the cabin.

Breath rolls from you in short frosted puffs. The Jeep lies cocked sideways in the snowbank like an empty turtle shell. You think of firelight and saunas and warm food and wine. You look again at the map. It's maybe five or six miles more to that penciled square. You run that far every day before breakfast. You'll just put on your skis. No problem.

There is no precise core temperature at which the human body perishes from cold. At Dachau's cold-water immersion baths, Nazi doctors calculated death to arrive at around 77 degrees Fahrenheit. The lowest recorded core temperature in a surviving adult is 60.8 degrees. For a child it's lower: In 1994, a two-year-old girl in Saskatchewan wandered out of her house into a minus-40 night. She was found near her doorstep the next morning, limbs frozen solid, her core temperature 57 degrees. She lived.

Others are less fortunate, even in much milder conditions. One of Europe's worst weather disasters occurred during a 1964 competitive walk on a windy, rainy English moor; three of the racers died from hypothermia, though temperatures never fell below freezing and ranged as high as 45.


But for all scientists and statisticians now know of freezing and its physiology, no one can yet predict exactly how quickly and in whom hypothermia will strike--and whether it will kill when it does. The cold remains a mystery, more prone to fell men than women, more lethal to the thin and well muscled than to those with avoirdupois, and least forgiving to the arrogant and the unaware.

The process begins even before you leave the car, when you remove your gloves to squeeze a loose bail back into one of your ski bindings. The freezing metal bites your flesh. Your skin temperature drops.

Within a few seconds, the palms of your hands are a chilly, painful 60 degrees. Instinctively, the web of surface capillaries on your hands constrict, sending blood coursing away from your skin and deeper into your torso. Your body is allowing your fingers to chill in order to keep its vital organs warm.

You replace your gloves, noticing only that your fingers have numbed slightly. Then you kick boots into bindings and start up the road.

Were you a Norwegian fisherman or Inuit hunter, both of whom frequently work gloveless in the cold, your chilled hands would open their surface capillaries periodically to allow surges of warm blood to pass into them and maintain their flexibility. This phenomenon, known as the hunter's response, can elevate a 35-degree skin temperature to 50 degrees within seven or eight minutes.

Other human adaptations to the cold are more mysterious. Tibetan Buddhist monks can raise the skin temperature of their hands and feet by 15 degrees through meditation. Australian aborigines, who once slept on the ground, unclothed, on near-freezing nights, would slip into a light hypothermic state, suppressing shivering until the rising sun rewarmed them.

You have no such defenses, having spent your days at a keyboard in a climate-controlled office. Only after about ten minutes of hard climbing, as your body temperature rises, does blood start seeping back into your fingers. Sweat trickles down your sternum and spine.

By now you've left the road and decided to shortcut up the forested mountainside to the road's next switchback. Treading slowly through deep, soft snow as the full moon hefts over a spiny ridgetop, throwing silvery bands of moonlight and shadow, you think your friends were right: It's a beautiful night for skiing--though you admit, feeling the minus-30 air bite at your face, it's also cold.


After an hour, there's still no sign of the switchback, and you've begun to worry. You pause to check the map. At this moment, your core temperature reaches its high: 100.8. Climbing in deep snow, you've generated nearly ten times as much body heat as you do when you are resting.

As you step around to orient map to forest, you hear a metallic pop. You look down. The loose bail has disappeared from your binding. You lift your foot and your ski falls from your boot.

You twist on your flashlight, and its cold-weakened batteries throw a yellowish circle in the snow. It's right around here somewhere, you think, as you sift the snow through gloved fingers. Focused so intently on finding the bail, you hardly notice the frigid air pressing against your tired body and sweat-soaked clothes.

The exertion that warmed you on the way uphill now works against you: Your exercise-dilated capillaries carry the excess heat of your core to your skin, and your wet clothing dispels it rapidly into the night. The lack of insulating fat over your muscles allows the cold to creep that much closer to your warm blood.

Your temperature begins to plummet. Within 17 minutes it reaches the normal 98.6. Then it slips below.

At 97 degrees, hunched over in your slow search, the muscles along your neck and shoulders tighten in what's known as pre-shivering muscle tone. Sensors have signaled the temperature control center in your hypothalamus, which in turn has ordered the constriction of the entire web of surface capillaries. Your hands and feet begin to ache with cold. Ignoring the pain, you dig carefully through the snow; another ten minutes pass. Without the bail you know you're in deep trouble.

Finally, nearly 45 minutes later, you find the bail. You even manage to pop it back into its socket and clamp your boot into the binding. But the clammy chill that started around your skin has now wrapped deep into your body's core.

At 95, you've entered the zone of mild hypothermia. You're now trembling violently as your body attains its maximum shivering response, an involuntary condition in which your muscles contract rapidly to generate additional body heat.


It was a mistake, you realize, to come out on a night this cold. You should turn back. Fishing into the front pocket of your shell parka, you fumble out the map. You consulted it to get here; it should be able to guide you back to the warm car. It doesn't occur to you in your increasingly clouded and panicky mental state that you could simply follow your tracks down the way you came.

And after this long stop, the skiing itself has become more difficult. By the time you push off downhill, your muscles have cooled and tightened so dramatically that they no longer contract easily, and once contracted, they won't relax. You're locked into an ungainly, spread-armed, weak-kneed snowplow.

Still, you manage to maneuver between stands of fir, swishing down through silvery light and pools of shadow. You're too cold to think of the beautiful night or of the friends you had meant to see. You think only of the warm Jeep that waits for you somewhere at the bottom of the hill. Its gleaming shell is centered in your mind's eye as you come over the crest of a small knoll. You hear the sudden whistle of wind in your ears as you gain speed. Then, before your mind can quite process what the sight means, you notice a lump in the snow ahead.

Recognizing, slowly, the danger that you are in, you try to jam your skis to a stop. But in your panic, your balance and judgment are poor. Moments later, your ski tips plow into the buried log and you sail headfirst through the air and bellyflop into the snow.

You lie still. There's a dead silence in the forest, broken by the pumping of blood in your ears. Your ankle is throbbing with pain and you've hit your head. You've also lost your hat and a glove. Scratchy snow is packed down your shirt. Meltwater trickles down your neck and spine, joined soon by a thin line of blood from a small cut on your head.

This situation, you realize with an immediate sense of panic, is serious. Scrambling to rise, you collapse in pain, your ankle crumpling beneath you.

As you sink back into the snow, shaken, your heat begins to drain away at an alarming rate, your head alone accounting for 50 percent of the loss. The pain of the cold soon pierces your ears so sharply that you root about in the snow until you find your hat and mash it back onto your head.

But even that little activity has been exhausting. You know you should find your glove as well, and yet you're becoming too weary to feel any urgency. You decide to have a short rest before going on.


An hour passes. at one point, a stray thought says you should start being scared, but fear is a concept that floats somewhere beyond your immediate reach, like that numb hand lying naked in the snow. You've slid into the temperature range at which cold renders the enzymes in your brain less efficient. With every one-degree drop in body temperature below 95, your cerebral metabolic rate falls off by 3 to 5 percent. When your core temperature reaches 93, amnesia nibbles at your consciousness. You check your watch: 12:58. Maybe someone will come looking for you soon. Moments later, you check again. You can't keep the numbers in your head. You'll remember little of what happens next.

Your head drops back. The snow crunches softly in your ear. In the minus-35-degree air, your core temperature falls about one degree every 30 to 40 minutes, your body heat leaching out into the soft, enveloping snow. Apathy at 91 degrees. Stupor at 90.

You've now crossed the boundary into profound hypothermia. By the time your core temperature has fallen to 88 degrees, your body has abandoned the urge to warm itself by shivering. Your blood is thickening like crankcase oil in a cold engine. Your oxygen consumption, a measure of your metabolic rate, has fallen by more than a quarter. Your kidneys, however, work overtime to process the fluid overload that occurred when the blood vessels in your extremities constricted and squeezed fluids toward your center. You feel a powerful urge to urinate, the only thing you feel at all.

By 87 degrees you've lost the ability to recognize a familiar face, should one suddenly appear from the woods.

At 86 degrees, your heart, its electrical impulses hampered by chilled nerve tissues, becomes arrhythmic. It now pumps less than two-thirds the normal amount of blood. The lack of oxygen and the slowing metabolism of your brain, meanwhile, begin to trigger visual and auditory hallucinations.

You hear jingle bells. Lifting your face from your snow pillow, you realize with a surge of gladness that they're not sleigh bells; they're welcoming bells hanging from the door of your friends' cabin. You knew it had to be close by. The jingling is the sound of the cabin door opening, just through the fir trees.

Attempting to stand, you collapse in a tangle of skis and poles. That's OK. You can crawl. It's so close.

Hours later, or maybe it's minutes, you realize the cabin still sits beyond the grove of trees. You've crawled only a few feet. The light on your wristwatch pulses in the darkness: 5:20. Exhausted, you decide to rest your head for a moment.


When you lift it again, you're inside, lying on the floor before the woodstove. The fire throws off a red glow. First it's warm; then it's hot; then it's searing your flesh. Your clothing has caught fire.

At 85 degrees, those freezing to death, in a strange, anguished paroxysm, often rip off their clothes. This phenomenon, known as paradoxical undressing, is common enough that urban hypothermia victims are sometimes initially diagnosed as victims of sexual assault. Though researchers are uncertain of the cause, the most logical explanation is that shortly before loss of consciousness, the constricted blood vessels near the body's surface suddenly dilate and produce a sensation of extreme heat against the skin.

All you know is that you're burning. You claw off your shell and pile sweater and fling them away.

But then, in a final moment of clarity, you realize there's no stove, no cabin, no friends. You're lying alone in the bitter cold, naked from the waist up. You grasp your terrible misunderstanding, a whole series of misunderstandings, like a dream ratcheting into wrongness. You've shed your clothes, your car, your oil-heated house in town. Without this ingenious technology you're simply a delicate, tropical organism whose range is restricted to a narrow sunlit band that girds the earth at the equator.

And you've now ventured way beyond it.

There's an adage about hypothermia: "You aren't dead until you're warm and dead."

At about 6:00 the next morning, his friends, having discovered the stalled Jeep, find him, still huddled inches from the buried log, his gloveless hand shoved into his armpit. The flesh of his limbs is waxy and stiff as old putty, his pulse nonexistent, his pupils unresponsive to light. Dead.

But those who understand cold know that even as it deadens, it offers perverse salvation. Heat is a presence: the rapid vibrating of molecules. Cold is an absence: the damping of the vibrations. At absolute zero, minus 459.67 degrees Fahrenheit, molecular motion ceases altogether. It is this slowing that converts gases to liquids, liquids to solids, and renders solids harder. It slows bacterial growth and chemical reactions. In the human body, cold shuts down metabolism. The lungs take in less oxygen, the heart pumps less blood. Under normal temperatures, this would produce brain damage. But the chilled brain, having slowed its own metabolism, needs far less oxygen-rich blood and can, under the right circumstances, survive intact.


Setting her ear to his chest, one of his rescuers listens intently. Seconds pass. Then, faintly, she hears a tiny sound--a single thump, so slight that it might be the sound of her own blood. She presses her ear harder to the cold flesh. Another faint thump, then another.

The slowing that accompanies freezing is, in its way, so beneficial that it is even induced at times. Cardiologists today often use deep chilling to slow a patient's metabolism in preparation for heart or brain surgery. In this state of near suspension, the patient's blood flows slowly, his heart rarely beats--or in the case of those on heart-lung machines, doesn't beat at all; death seems near. But carefully monitored, a patient can remain in this cold stasis, undamaged, for hours.

The rescuers quickly wrap their friend's naked torso with a spare parka, his hands with mittens, his entire body with a bivy sack. They brush snow from his pasty, frozen face. Then one snakes down through the forest to the nearest cabin. The others, left in the pre-dawn darkness, huddle against him as silence closes around them. For a moment, the woman imagines she can hear the scurrying, breathing, snoring of a world of creatures that have taken cover this frigid night beneath the thick quilt of snow.

With a "one, two, three," the doctor and nurses slide the man's stiff, curled form onto a table fitted with a mattress filled with warm water which will be regularly reheated. They'd been warned that they had a profound hypothermia case coming in. Usually such victims can be straightened from their tortured fetal positions. This one can't.

Technicians scissor with stainless-steel shears at the man's urine-soaked long underwear and shell pants, frozen together like corrugated cardboard. They attach heart-monitor electrodes to his chest and insert a low-temperature electronic thermometer into his rectum. Digital readings flash: 24 beats per minute and a core temperature of 79.2 degrees.

The doctor shakes his head. He can't remember seeing numbers so low. He's not quite sure how to revive this man without killing him.

In fact, many hypothermia victims die each year in the process of being rescued. In "rewarming shock," the constricted capillaries reopen almost all at once, causing a sudden drop in blood pressure. The slightest movement can send a victim's heart muscle into wild spasms of ventricular fibrillation. In 1980, 16 shipwrecked Danish fishermen were hauled to safety after an hour and a half in the frigid North Sea. They then walked across the deck of the rescue ship, stepped below for a hot drink, and dropped dead, all 16 of them.

"78.9," a technician calls out. "That's three-tenths down."


The patient is now experiencing "afterdrop," in which residual cold close to the body's surface continues to cool the core even after the victim is removed from the outdoors.

The doctor rapidly issues orders to his staff: intravenous administration of warm saline, the bag first heated in the microwave to 110 degrees. Elevating the core temperature of an average-size male one degree requires adding about 60 kilocalories of heat. A kilocalorie is the amount of heat needed to raise the temperature of one liter of water one degree Celsius. Since a quart of hot soup at 140 degrees offers about 30 kilocalories, the patient curled on the table would need to consume 40 quarts of chicken broth to push his core temperature up to normal. Even the warm saline, infused directly into his blood, will add only 30 kilocalories.

Ideally, the doctor would have access to a cardiopulmonary bypass machine, with which he could pump out the victim's blood, rewarm and oxygenate it, and pump it back in again, safely raising the core temperature as much as one degree every three minutes. But such machines are rarely available outside major urban hospitals. Here, without such equipment, the doctor must rely on other options.

"Let's scrub for surgery," he calls out.

Moments later, he's sliding a large catheter into an incision in the man's abdominal cavity. Warm fluid begins to flow from a suspended bag, washing through his abdomen, and draining out through another catheter placed in another incision. Prosaically, this lavage operates much like a car radiator in reverse: The solution warms the internal organs, and the warm blood in the organs is then pumped by the heart throughout the body.

The patient's stiff limbs begin to relax. His pulse edges up. But even so the jagged line of his heartbeat flashing across the EKG screen shows the curious dip known as a J wave, common to hypothermia patients.

"Be ready to defibrillate," the doctor warns the EMTs.

For another hour, nurses and EMTs hover around the edges of the table where the patient lies centered in a warm pool of light, as if offered up to the sun god. They check his heart. They check the heat of the mattress beneath him. They whisper to one another about the foolishness of having gone out alone tonight.


And slowly the patient responds. Another liter of saline is added to the IV. The man's blood pressure remains far too low, brought down by the blood flowing out to the fast-opening capillaries of his limbs. Fluid lost through perspiration and urination has reduced his blood volume. But every 15 or 20 minutes, his temperature rises another degree. The immediate danger of cardiac fibrillation lessens, as the heart and thinning blood warms. Frostbite could still cost him fingers or an earlobe. But he appears to have beaten back the worst of the frigidity.

For the next half hour, an EMT quietly calls the readouts of the thermometer, a mantra that marks the progress of this cold-blooded proto-organism toward a state of warmer, higher consciousness.

"90.4...
"92.2..."

From somewhere far away in the immense, cold darkness, you hear a faint, insistent hum. Quickly it mushrooms into a ball of sound, like a planet rushing toward you, and then it becomes a stream of words.

A voice is calling your name.

You don't want to open your eyes. You sense heat and light playing against your eyelids, but beneath their warm dance a chill wells up inside you from the sunless ocean bottoms and the farthest depths of space. You are too tired even to shiver. You want only to sleep.

"Can you hear me?"

You force open your eyes. Lights glare overhead. Around the lights faces hover atop uniformed bodies. You try to think: You've been away a very long time, but where have you been?


"You're at the hospital. You got caught in the cold."

You try to nod. Your neck muscles feel rusted shut, unused for years. They respond to your command with only a slight twitch.

"You'll probably have amnesia," the voice says.

You remember the moon rising over the spiky ridgetop and skiing up toward it, toward someplace warm beneath the frozen moon. After that, nothing--only that immense coldness lodged inside you.

"We're trying to get a little warmth back into you," the voice says.

You'd nod if you could. But you can't move. All you can feel is throbbing discomfort everywhere. Glancing down to where the pain is most biting, you notice blisters filled with clear fluid dotting your fingers, once gloveless in the snow. During the long, cold hours the tissue froze and ice crystals formed in the tiny spaces between your cells, sucking water from them, blocking the blood supply. You stare at them absently.

"I think they'll be fine," a voice from overhead says. "The damage looks superficial. We expect that the blisters will break in a week or so, and the tissue should revive after that."

If not, you know that your fingers will eventually turn black, the color of bloodless, dead tissue. And then they will be amputated.


But worry slips from you as another wave of exhaustion sweeps in. Slowly you drift off, dreaming of warmth, of tropical ocean wavelets breaking across your chest, of warm sand beneath you.

Hours later, still logy and numb, you surface, as if from deep under water. A warm tide seems to be flooding your midsection. Focusing your eyes down there with difficulty, you see tubes running into you, their heat mingling with your abdomen's depthless cold like a churned-up river. You follow the tubes to the bag that hangs suspended beneath the electric light.

And with a lurch that would be a sob if you could make a sound, you begin to understand: The bag contains all that you had so nearly lost. These people huddled around you have brought you sunlight and warmth, things you once so cavalierly dismissed as constant, available, yours, summoned by the simple twisting of a knob or tossing on of a layer.

But in the hours since you last believed that, you've traveled to a place where there is no sun. You've seen that in the infinite reaches of the universe, heat is as glorious and ephemeral as the light of the stars. Heat exists only where matter exists, where particles can vibrate and jump. In the infinite winter of space, heat is tiny; it is the cold that is huge.

Someone speaks. Your eyes move from bright lights to shadowy forms in the dim outer reaches of the room. You recognize the voice of one of the friends you set out to visit, so long ago now. She's smiling down at you crookedly.

"It's cold out there," she says. "Isn't it?"

Writing what readers want

Writing what readers want
or
The incredible adventure of meeting Karen Marie Moning

by Pauly Hart
01/25/2015
PaulyHart.com
Where Truth Matters.



I would like to share with you the story of taking my wife to see Karen Marie Moning and JR Ward in Kentucky yesterday. These women both write Supernatural Fantasy Urban Paranormal Romance Thrillers... Which is a weird thing to write but they are both on the New York Times #1 best seller list, make a lot of money so shut up about how weird that is already and read my story.

Moning's newest book, released 1/20/15
The main reason to go was to see Karen. My wife has been a follower/reader of her for ten years, so this predates our relationship by four years so I believed that since she has captured my wife's attention for this long, I had better see what it was all about.

We awoke at four in the morning, threw our stuff together and were out the door. We drove for several hours, stood outside in twenty degree weather for several hours stood in line inside of a bookstore for several hours, stood in line in a mall for several hours and finally got to see the authors. They walked the crowd, answering questions of their books, their personal lives and their paths of creativity. I asked a question of Karen about an "evil book" in the book series that she wrote and how it evolved from a plot, to a plot device to a contagonist into a very enfleshed antagonist and she answered it very well to my satisfaction. I learned more, however, by watching the crowd around her.

I was among maybe five other men in a group of five hundred women... It was a strange but a wonderful experience to feel the estrogen in the room pulse and seethe like it's own living entity. Three times during the question and answer time Karen laughed at the crowd and told them that they were a schizophrenic and fickle people because they couldn't decide what they wanted her to write about. And that's true. Different opinions are shaped not only by the genetic makeup of a person, but by their experiences that they grow up around. No author can please a crowd in it's entirety.

Karen Marie Moning - answering questions yesterday.
But what I learned from this trip was not about the authors at all. I learned about audiences and how to amuse them. First of all, your setting does not matter. I recall little Pauly, scrunched under the covers, age ten reading Frodo and Sam, or The Stainless Steel Rat, or Skeeve and Aahz and thinking how different these universes were, but because they enveloped my entire brain, I was loathe to stop reading about what would happen to them next. I was invested. It didn't matter what the adventure was, I wanted to read more. They had created in me, a return audience. I was theirs to lose really. I am not happy that any of the Twilight series was written by Stephanie Meyer, but I am happy that she at least did not write MORE of them. The last one was done so poorly that she probably would have lost a large portion of her audience with child-raping werewolves now a part of the lore. Even if the movie does well, I declare shenanigans on her entire universe.

But enough Stephanie Myer bashing. I was first talking about Tolkien and Harrison and Asprin. Reading really got my goat as a kid, not that my name was Billy, but it did help me ram home some terrible puns. What I learned from these women in the audience yesterday is that people want to read, just as I did and still do but they don't want to read boring dried up crap! They want to read:

JR Ward - prowling the audience
1) Things that are relevant
2) Things that are exciting
3) Things that are emotional
4) Things that are intimate
5) When needed, paranormal

I've asked my wife about this list and she agrees that these are the things that move her to want to read. She loves it when she can emotionally invest in a character and have her faith rest in the idea that he or she can go farther, pursue longer, save better, think quicker, overcome and achieve whatever the plot goal is using whatever plot devices are necessary. It helped me to understand this about the audience and I needed to understand that the writers actually "GET" what their readers want.

Not what they "WANT" want out of this character to fall in love with this one, or that character to not have died... But things that are in the list to continue pulling and teasing and stretching their needs, wants, and desires. When a reader picks up your book or story or essay or poem, they are hoping that the "This better be good" feeling envelops them from the very onset, grips them (or hugs them) throughout the entirety, and then gently places them back into reality when the reading is over, like a lover would place a kiss on the cheek.
My wife, meeting her writing hero.

And this is what I want to provide as a writer. Relevant. Exciting. Stuff. That just sneezes all over you with awesomeness. Like this story for example. You think it's pretty great. It's a really powerful story about how I, as a fledgling writer, went and experienced two well known and popular writers and had my world shaken and tossed upside down and I cracked open my insides and a lot of preconceptions came oozing out, but I scooped myself up, ran home and now am finding out that what was on the inside of my belief system as a writer was nothing but crap.

And so I heal and will begin to write better.

Harvest Christian Camp, Lewisville, Indiana

Harvest Christian Camp, Lewisville, Indiana
by Pauly Hart
01/23/2015
PaulyHart.com
Where Truth Matters.


When Omega Ranch closed down in Scott City, Kansas, Harvest Ranch was there to help me transition into a brighter environment. On arriving, it was Pastor Janette McBride that had me climb up on her horse-drawn buggy and I was given my interview right then and there. I was there for five weeks my first year, One week in the kitchen, one week cutting lawns, one week as a councilor, one week as ministry staff, and my last week they let me be a rancher myself.

Here's me and some of the boys.
I worked for the camp for two additional seasons in high school and college and have to say that it was probably one of the largest reasons that I am a strong Christian today. I did so many things with young people that moved and changed how I view our inter-connectivity with one another as well as our role as the Body of Christ on this earth. I witnessed four medical miracles (acts of spontaneous remission) underneath the move of the late Reverend Johnny Beard as well as others. I witness an "Outpouring" of Gods precious Holy Spirit over twenty times and I witnessed children forgiving their fathers for their wrongdoing underneath the song "Daddy's Song" performed via tape by Dennis Jernigan of Oklahoma City.

I met many beautiful people who I am still in contact today as an adult, Amber, Nealy and many others helped me to grow strong as a Christian and to have as positive role models for me as a young adult in my quest for a great wife. Marc and Christine Hynds encouraged me, loved me, had faith in me, where no one else did. I taught a "Creative Writing" class and wrote the opening night play called "The Gospel According To Granny" for my last visit there in 1994 and that served as a springboard to help me write over 1500 poems, several children's books as well as my first novel.

Myself and two of my adopted sisters.

I would recommend that you send your child to Harvest Christian Camp. I would recommend that you work as much as you can, live as a pauper, save all your money, and help out our future by bringing every child you've ever met, every year to Harvest Christian Camp. It's just that good. God has done many beautiful things thru that camp and will continue to do many things there. You don't want your kid to miss this opportunity.

Oklahoma says "No" to history

Oklahoma says "No" to history
by Pauly Hart
01/22/2015
PaulyHart.com
Where Truth Matters.


Oklahoma now available with White People*
(*White people shown to scale)

Oklahoma feels that history should be viewed from a distance... At least that's what the White House says it should teach. Yes. The White House is telling your school in your state what to teach and what not to teach. In this case, The Oklahoma Land Rush.


This all started last year with a program called: "My Brother's Keeper." The newest wave of Federal Programs to help out school children to find their way into a brighter tomorrow. Every administration has one, and this is President Obama's, and it's massive to say the least. There are six basic concerns, one of them is "Ensuring all youth out of school are employed" which is just nuts if you ask me, but no one has so, ok. I was fine when I was in third grade not having a job, but Obama doesn't think so. But I digress.


Evidently the President decided that "White House Initiative on American Indian and Alaska Native Education (WHIAIANE)" needed a larger push to lead it into battle. This action group hasn't really been much more than a think tank since it formed back in 2011, and My Brother's Keeper is fresher and edgier and evidently (from photo and video stock) primarily aimed at african heritage teenage boys. So lets throw WHIAIANE on the bandwagon and see if we can push it farther. Maybe these Native Americans are just like Blacks!

"Now you boys run along and play with guns."
And they did. They even went on tour. The first tour ever. A "Listening" tour to determine how we are treating young Native Americans since we sailed over here, raped their sister, stole their land, shot their dad and told them to move to land that no one wanted to live on anyway. Or something along those lines. At least move to Oklahoma. Cause we totally want to give you... "That place"... Like FOREVER. Seriously, we're never going to let anyone ever take it fr... Mmmmm. Well nevermind. We're going to take that too and give it away free to white people.

The first tour ever. Hey, how's it going? Remember that one time we took your land, raped your sister and killed your dad? Well, we were wondering how it's going for your great grandchildren and if they've forgotten about all that? Ooooooh. They have? Great! How can we better help you to forget? I know! Let's go ahead and take away the painful reminder of the "Land Rush".

I wonder if the "Trail of Tears Reeinactment" would make soccer moms cry?
So Wisconsin, Michigan, Oklahoma, New York, California, Alaska and Washington are all getting these guys coming around and "listening" to their problems. Things are great thanks. Here's some free tokens to our casino and some cigarettes. “Indian students have unique education challenges as they strive to preserve their native cultures and languages, while ensuring that they are college and career ready.” says William Mendoza, executive director of the White House Initiative on American Indian and Alaska Native Education. Sure. THEY STRIVE... Cause the government sure didn't help much, now did they?

Now, come on... Progress is a good thing. There were some good things done. One of the better, more recent acts to be done was the Civil Rights Act of 1964, and this whole push towards "Educatin' the Injun" is a branch from the Office of Civil Rights, and specifically Title Six of the act, passed in the fall of 2000, and just now rearing it's head in the form of WHIAIANE. Now they have videos and posters and pamphlets and probably a droid app (for all I know) written in English, Spanish, Chinese, Vietnamese, and even Korean! "Progress as promised" to quote a roadwork sign. Yet I wonder why they haven't translated it into any of the Algic languages like Ojibwe, or are they just leaving that problem to the Kanuks? If they live on a "Reservation" then it's a big deal, but not on a "Reserve" eh? But again, I digress.

"Where are all the Indians?"
"They're far and away."
Dear Native Aboriginals, WHIAIANE promises to listen to you and hear your concerns and to "serve as a meaningful resource" (William Mendoza again). But at what cost, if they take away MORE OF YOUR HERITAGE? And here is where you might think that I'm being absurd, but let me give you a real quick background of what I do for a living and where I work.

I work at a very illustrious camp in the middle of the United States, named after a FIERCE Native who was against the movements and settling of those who came. I put on a "Settler" outfit and talk to grade-school children and we discuss how it was to live in the late 1700's. I teach them how to make a sod house, how to cook a stew (even how to trap and kill the animal), and I teach them how to live peaceably with the Natives around them. I even teach them some of the "Five Civilized Tribes" Sign Language signs to better communicate how to trade tobacco, sugar, fur or whatever. Reenactment is the key to learning history.

And The White House is taking away the Reenactment of the Oklahoma Land Rush from Oklahoma.

Of course they want our children to forget. And they dressed it up very well. They even have pamphlets in Korean!

Here's a picture.

the catholic church vs. the ymca.

the catholic church vs. the ymca.
by Pauly Hart
01/17/2015
PaulyHart.com
Where Truth Matters.


till not sure whether i stand with the ymca or the catholic church on the whole $60,000 coalition for refugee thing... but if i were to guess, i would probably say i would stand with the ymca.

as many of you know, the ymca helps an illinois organization that empowers the indigent in body and mind to rise up and achieve equality within the system here in the united states of america. sometimes they help those who are homosexuals. but that's ok. Jesus told us to love every one no matter what sin they are involved in, whether homosexuality, murder or even gluttony. the catholic church, however, has a huge problem with this and recently told the ymca to either stop helping them or they would pull their funding. the ymca refused, and the catholic church stopped giving them money.

so... on one hand i agree with the ymca and i tell myself that: "sure, you can help people as an organization, and that help can cross all sorts of barriers and it's good to help people." on the other hand i can see the catholic church and it's position. "alright, they are giving money into an organization that empowers the glbt movements and that should stop."

going backwards to the foundations of both parties should prove useful if i want to solve this argument. the ymca does not have a stance on gay marriage. just like Jesus didn't really have a stance on hanging out with hookers and the mafia. he was there to help people. the catholic church was founded by former priests who converted to christianity but didn't want to lose their position so they invented an intermediary between God and man... something Christ warned about as an antichrist spirit.

so i have to side with the ymca on the subject. even though the catholic church refuses to give a grant for sixty thousand bucks to a really cool organization. the mission statement for the y?

"The YMCA is a nonprofit organization whose mission is to put Christian principles into practice through programs that build healthy spirit, mind and body for all."

i think it's ok to help gay people... why doesn't the catholic church?

Notes on: "The Third Way"

Notes on: "The Third Way"
by Pauly Hart
01/11/2015
PaulyHart.com
Where Truth Matters.


Just watched "The Third Way" - Pretty logical. Pretty sound. On track and in line with every part of the Bible that I know. It deals mainly with the fight against homosexuality in the hearts and minds of people and how to overcome your negative action by positive action: Love. It also deals with the way of love being the "Third Way" to reconcile a lot of hurt and pain that homosexuals and heterosexuals feel on a day to day basis.

Although Paul the Apostle told us that all of us are called to a full life and if you can live a chaste life, it's better for you, but that if you really burn with passion, go ahead and get married (heterosexually) and have fun. I led a chaste life for the first twenty four years of my life and I was fine with it. I gave my virginity to my wife. I could have made it all the way, but I like sex too much.

As a young man, I thought about homosexuality for a while, but didn't act on it. I experimented with cross-dressing for a minute, and decided that it wasn't for me. My father took me to a seminar once, and the preacher talked about "waiting for the right one to come along." So I did that. I waited. And the right one was a woman. Once I figured out that holistic prosperity of spirit came from two opposite parts of the human species dedicating their lives to one another for life, I was sold on the idea of me, a man, marrying a woman to spend the rest of my life with.

Although I think that the Catholic belief in a pope is flawed and that the movie presses the belief that the only true Church is the Catholic one, I profess that I still like the fact that they point to the actual arbiter for our sins, and that is Jesus Christ. I do appreciate the people for making this movie, and I can for the most part, condone every part of it.

It's a good thing to watch and a good thing to think about: Could I be chaste if I really wanted to? I know I was for twenty four years. It was tough but I made it. Can you?


The Third Way from Blackstone Films on Vimeo.

How to get them to come to your camp

How to get them to come to your camp
by Pauly Hart
01/05/2015
PaulyHart.com
Where Truth Matters.




I think the biggest way to draw groups in is connecting to the energies they have already spent in their own families, churches and extended social groups. Such groups are mostly: Independent Home School Groups, Boy Scouts, Cub Scouts, Girl Scouts, Campfire Girls, Frontier Girls, Spiralscouts, 4H and Church youth groups and children's groups. To grab a hold of these already built youth club organizations is key to a vital Camp growth experience.

A synergy is formed when the entire club is united in an experience that fits their curriculum at a place they feel is committed to their cause. When the Troop leader or Parent leader becomes sold then you are seen as a venue for an activity and not just a stand alone outdoor activity camp. By creating a place for their thing you intertwine the idea in the minds of the children.

"Look dad, they have a SUMMER CAMP TOO!" and suddenly Mister Smith is filling out your forms online.

I believe the key to selling yourself and your camp to one of these groups is personal involvement. Offer to go into a meeting and so a presentation about constellations or basket weaving or whatever it is you and your camp do best to help them obtain badges, medals, or the like. Become the expert on that subject in their eyes and then offer to let them come to your camp for free in two weeks on Saturday and you will teach them another merit badge (the idea here being the open house without that name attached to it). Feed everyone a free lunch. Run it from 9AM - 4PM and invite several groups at once. Have several clinics going on at the same time, schedules posted everywhere, games ready and staff on hand to help with direction for non-staff led activities.

By selling your Camp as a "Venue for Entertainment and Growth" to fit their programs you are opening yourself up to a whole other level of new camper-ship. Again, creating the dynamic synergy between yourself as a place and the groups as the people and You Will Help Them Achieve Their Goals is 8 or 9 months of preparation and foundation laying for the cash cow that a full Summer Camp calendar can bring you.

Finally, parents are begging for a place to take their kids. Why would you want them anywhere else but at your camp? They may have heard about your camp or know of it through a friend, or luckely have a child that has gone there in the past... SELL IT. There are public and state parks and lakes galore! Why should they come to your camp to do their activities? Because you are designed to do it. You work at a location on this small planet that is close to where they live that offers everything they need that has a well organized staff, well tended trails, an ACA rating, obeys OSHA, with plenty of parking, free food and good heaters! GO GET 'EM!

Is The Long Dark a horror game?

Is The Long Dark a horror game?
by Pauly Hart
12/29/2014
PaulyHart.com
Where Truth Matters.



Wikipedia defines horror fiction as: Horror fiction, horror literature and also horror fantasy are genres of literature, which are intended to, or have the capacity to frighten, scare, or startle their readers by inducing feelings of horror and terror. Wikipedia also describes the Horror film genre as: Horror is a film genre seeking to elicit a negative emotional reaction from viewers by playing on the audience's primal fears.

I have come to an understanding that most horror movies are those that you cannot escape from and must endure to the very end. Even "Thriller" shows like "Jumanji" and "Jurrasic Park" are indeed classical horror films if this model is to be employed. The Long Dark is in its own aspect a horror survival game technically... But I would not define it as such. I would place it on the verge of the "Life Plus" genre if there were such a thing other than the model we have of "Drama".

Turning once again to Wikipedia, we find in the "Action Games" group of gaming, the subgroup or sub-genre of "Survival Horror". Here we see it defined as: Survival horror is a sub-genre of video games inspired by horror fiction that focuses on survival of the character and trying to scare the player(s). Although combat can be a part of the gameplay, the player is made to feel less powerful than in typical action games, because of limited ammunition, health, speed, or other limitations. The player is also challenged to find items that unlock the path to new areas, and solve puzzles at certain locations. Games make use of strong horror themes, and the player is often challenged to navigate dark maze-like environments, and react to unexpected attacks from enemies.



If we access true life circumstances, we are playing Pilgrim mode and we are having fun and loving the chance to find stuff and test our wits against nature in her harshest form... Or so we think. Then we step up to Voyageur and Stalker and we are hating our lives and questioning why we insist on torturing ourselves with this game in the first place, but then we game after game telling ourselves that we could have done *This* better or *That* more efficiently... Only later to be devoured by nature in her advanced harshest form.

The Long Dark is indeed a Survival Horror game in true detail of life. Despite the emotional factor relying only on the player and not the character in game, and the sugar ills of drinking too much of Stacy's Grape Soda, I can see it being very true to what a horror genre film or movie or game would want to set up. Personally, I love survival things although I despise the Zombie theme and ultimately want to see TLD surpass playability of 7 days to die and other well-selling Zombie Survival Horror games. Long live true life survival.

So... Is The Long Dark a horror game? Yes. But only as horrible as you chose it to be.

The Long Dark Review

The Long Dark Review
by Pauly Hart
12/20/2014
PaulyHart.com
Where Truth Matters.






I teach a survival simulation course to children and adults.

I work at a camp where we have a variety of programs that we offer to grade-schoolers who come and take field trips at our site. Among the fun ones like "Log-cabin Building" and "Pioneer Cooking" is "Survival Simulation". What does that look like? Very similar to this game. We are open in the spring and the fall and are in the northern United States and often find ourselves doing this in the snow. As a matter of fact, on first looking at it, I was convinced that some items had been taken from my manual. But that was silly. Smart survivalists all say the same basic things.


Before I take the children out, I give them a quick lesson on all the things they will experience in the simulation. How to find water, how to find or create tinder, kindling and fuel for a fire, what a fire needs to live, what we need to live, how to build a lean-to, how to find what direction the wind is coming from, how to build an S.O.S. signal and how to create a splint, stop blood loss and treat shock. Pretty rushed though, but that's OK because we are going outside and going to practice everything that I just showed them.

So, at our camp, we have "The plane crash" in a wilderness area (no houses around sorry) and the burning wreckage is going so hot and heavy that the survivors only have time to grab five items out of a long list of things that was on the plane. We are looking basically for them to chose: Matches, Knife, Metal bucket, Rope, Tarp and not choose things like: Flashlight, Popcorn, Toilet paper, and the like. They only have a few minutes before the plane catches all the way, and then sinks into the bog.


The main good news during my Survival Sim is that there are no wolves. Not real ones at least. The pretend ones come later. We do, however, put them to the test. There are around ten children usually and they are given fifty "Life Points" per group, each child accounting for five of those points. I will give them twenty minutes to find water, get a fire going and bring their water to a boil. Fire accounts for: Light, Heat, Ability to melt and boil water, Ability to cook food, Safety, Ability to dry wet clothes, and most importantly: Hope.

If they fail at the first task the rest are ultimately harder. And I take away half of their Life Points. Then I have them search for food, erect a shelter, someone "has an accident" and breaks their leg and bleeds everywhere and goes into shock, and then I have them build and S.O.S. and get into the shelter before the wolves come.


Usually around half of the children die. But we go inside out of the snow and discuss what happened and they write down the things they did that were successful and the things that were not.
All of that prepared me for The Long Dark. In the game, I found myself learning new and inventive strategies that I did not know I was able to invent. I felt as if I were a child and the game makers were myself, being patient and ever so helpful. Wait. No. There was no help. Only the savage fangs of the wolves. And the snow. The long dark? The long snow-blind, wolf-infested, frozen-soul dark. Dark and dirty... And damn cold.


My first experience with this game was my wife screaming from the other room. "Oh my gosh honey! This is totally you!" she went on and on. She was so happy to have found something that looked like I would play it over and over. That was two weeks ago. It was to be my Christmas present... Heh. I've been enjoying it a little early.



Enjoying it? Obsessing over it? Living it? I caught myself looking up dog-food prices the other day. On the top of my review, it shows how many hours I have played of this game. Does it really reflect the thirty hours I've spent scouring maps and watching youtube videos? No. You niggardly hour-counter. How dare you scoff at my lack of total commitment! I love this game and have recently purchased it for my brother and one of my closest friends.

Do I recommend this game? Yes. Only if you want to live.



George RR Martin thinks Sony is a coward



This one is surreal.

In a stunning display of corporate cowardice, Regal, AMC, and every other major theatre chain in the United States have cancelled their plans to show the new Seth Rogen/ James Franco comedy THE INTERVIEW, because of -- yes, seriously, this is not a SOUTH PARK sketch (though I expect it soon will be) -- threats from North Korea.

I mean, really? REALLY?? These gigantic corporations, most of which could buy North Korea with pocket change, are declining to show a film because Kim Jong-Un objects to being mocked?

The level of corporate cowardice here astonishes me. It's a good thing these guys weren't around when Charlie Chaplin made THE GREAT DICTATOR. If Kim Jong-Un scares them, Adolf Hitler would have had them shitting in their smallclothes.

Even Sony, which made the movie, is going along. There are thousands of small independent theatres across the country, like my own, that would gladly screen THE INTERVIEW, regardless of the threats from North Korea, but instead of shifting the film to those venues, Sony has cancelled its scheduled Christmas rollout entirely.

I haven't seen THE INTERVIEW. I have no idea how good or bad a film it is. It might be hilarious. It might be stupid and offensive and outrageous. (Actually, I am pretty sure about the 'outrageous' part). It might be all of the above.

That's not the point, though. Whether it's the next CITIZEN KANE or the next PLAN 9 FROM OUTER SPACE, it astonishes me that a major Hollywood film could be killed before release by threats from a foreign power and anonymous hackers.

For what it's worth, the Jean Cocteau Cinema will be glad to screen THE INTERVIEW (assuming that Sony does eventually release the film for theatrical exhibition, rather than streaming it or dumping it as a direct-to-DVD release), should it be made available to us. Come to Santa Fe, Seth, we'll show your film for you.
Current Location:Santa Fe

Current Mood: pissed off

from HERE

Oklahoma's Satanic Statue


The Satanic Statue Being Made for Oklahoma's Statehouse Is Coming Along Nicely



Photo by Jonathan Smith

Two weeks ago I found myself in the backwoods of rural Florida standing in front of a ​bronzed bust of the pagan idol Baphomet. A few days later it would be attached to its eight-and-a-half-foot cloven-hoofed body and put to rest on a throne flanked on either side by a small metallic child. Eventually, its creators hope, it will be whisked away to Oklahoma, where it will be placed next to a Ten Commandments monument on the front lawn of the state capitol.




I had come to this foundry in the middle of the sticks with Lucien Greaves, the spokesperson for the Satanic Temple, the group behind the monument. The last time I saw it was in a small Brooklyn studio in April, when it was still being formed out of clay by ​Mark Porter, an artist trained in classical sculpture. Now, seven months later, it's almost finished.


Lucien Greaves, Leader of the Satanic Temple


The New Satanic Monument Being Built






Photos by Jonathan Smith

Before this trip I had been under the impression that bronze sculptures were created with a giant crane that dipped the work whole into a vat of molten bronze like a piece of bread into a fondue bowl. That's not the case. The work is cut into many pieces, each of which is bronzed separately before being welded back together. When we arrived, different parts of the sculpture lay scattered across the property. The bust sat on a wooden table inside a sort of open-air shed, while the torso rested nearby on a smaller table. The hooves and arms were splayed out on the ground nearby. The following day, Porter, along with two other men, would begin the arduous process of welding the disparate pieces together to create a smooth, fluid sculpture meant to serve as a testament to the equal representation of all religions under United States law.

While it's not yet finished, the below images should give you an idea of what these guys are working with:



Oklahoma is far from the only state with a religious monument—or even a Ten Commandments monument—on government property. In fact, there's even a ​handy website that maps them all out for you. So why did the Satanic Temple choose Oklahoma?

"They specifically made statements that this location was to be a monument park," Greaves told me. "They didn't put it in exactly those words, but that was the legal rhetoric that they instituted to justify it and pretend there was constitutional standing for it, and that was just a breach of the [First Amendment's] establishment clause. They set the perfect groundwork for us."

Oklahoma State Representative Mike Ritze set that groundwork in 2012 when he paid for the Ten Commandments monument and its installation with money out of his own pocket. Because he paid for the Commandments himself, it was classified as a donation and allowed to be placed on government property.

The Temple has been largely ignored by members of the Oklahoma government, so on July 30 they decided to file a Freedom of Information Act request for documents relating to the installation of the Baphomet statue. "I feel strongly that we didn't receive all the documents we should have," Greaves told me. "It seems highly unlikely to me that their files consist entirely of citizen letters opposed to the monument with almost no communication with government officials as to where they stand on it." The Temple even had proof that at least one of the documents was withheld, according to Greaves, in the form of a registered letter the Satanic Temple had sent to the Capital Preservation Commission. "We had gotten the notice that they'd received it," Greaves said. Yet "that was not included in their file of communications regarding the Satanic Temple monument request." After an appeal, the Capital Preservation Commission produced a copy of the letter.



Of course, all of this talk of installing the statue in Oklahoma is contingent on the Ten Commandments monument being rebuilt after a drunk guy who heard voices in his head pissed on the slab b​efore smashing his car into it last October. If it's not rebuilt, the Temple will stop trying to put Baphomet on the statehouse yard.

According to Greaves, the existence of the Ten Commandments statue is essential to his organization's goals with this project. The Baphomet is "part man, part animal, points above, points below, the legs are crossed, upright pentagram on head, inverse pentagram behind the head, and the Caduceus on the lap representing balance and reconciliation," he said. "The message behind Baphoment is a reconciliation of the opposites, not this call to arms of one against one but a merging of the two. That's part of the reason that it can only exist standing next to the Ten Commandments. That's part of the message. We wouldn't want to proselytize as a single voice in the public square."



Luckily for the Temple, it seems as though the Commandments are on track to be rebuilt. Representative Mike Ritze, whose voicemail ends with "Have a great day in the Lord!" told VICE that he has already raised the money to rebuild the Commandments monument and plans to have it reinstalled at an undisclosed date. When asked how the money was raised, he responded, simply, "private."

When I broke this news to Greaves this week via email, he replied:

Everything is now in place for the battle ahead. This isn't a mere petty fight that exploits a legal loophole. The forthcoming battle for Oklahoma cuts to the heart of how we conceive of our rights as American citizens, how we interpret and respect our constitutional values of plurality and individual freedom. However this case is ultimately decided, it will have deep and lasting ramifications for generations to come. This monument of Baphomet will hereafter be recognized as a central icon for the continually growing populations of Satanists, secularists, and advocates for individual liberty who refuse to bow to the arbitrary authority of archaic edicts, and refuse to accept their marginalization at the hands of thinly veiled theocrats. We look forward to arranging with Oklahoma a date on which we may erect and unveil Baphomet, where it will stand in honor of the unjustly accused, the slandered minority, the maligned outgroups, so that we might pay respect to their memory and celebrate our progress as a pluralistic nation founded on secular law.

While the Baphomet is the Temple's most high-profile project to date, they are constantly working on other community-oriented projects, such as a Satanic holiday ​display that will be installed in the Florida State Capitol's rotunda near a Nativity scene. Then there's the Satanic coloring book, set to be distributed, along with Bibles donated by the Christian group World Changers of Florida, to students in the Orange County School District in January. And in July, the Temple used the Supreme Court's Hobby Lobby ruling in an ongoing effort to gain legal exemption to informed conse​nt laws for women who want an abortion but don't want to be given a bunch of scientifically unsound literature.



Those very public projects, as well as others, have led some to accuse the Temple of being media whores performing stunts to get attention. "Well of course!" Greaves says. "You need media to bring attention to these issues. If we're going to do a public prayer, we want to do it in a place like the town of Greec​e where it's a Supreme Court battle. We don't want to keep this secret. We want it high-profile."

You have the wrong number

You have the wrong number
by Pauly Hart
12/13/2014
PaulyHart.com
Where Truth Matters.


When I lived in Fort Wayne Indiana, our phone number was Landy Enterprises old number and was ALMOST Hires Auto Parts phone number... Like seriously we would get four or five phone calls a day about this and that and one thing or another...




How much is an alternator for an '82 Bronco? Could I bring in my 95 Camry because the exhaust manifold fell off. Does Chris work today?

And we couldn't make them stop. So I just started making stuff up. I remember distinctly someone calling asking for Steve. I told them Steve had packed his stuff up, yelled at a bunch of people, threw stuff around the store and quit yesterday. That was a classic one because they actually knew Steve and said it sounded just like him and they were going to call his wife.

Another time I argued with a guy about his catalytic converter because I told him I was going to charge him $150 for one and yesterday "I" told him it would only be around $40. He was going to "Come down there and deal with me in person" when I became belligerent.

Oh the good times to be had by all. Anyway. Enjoy this terrible happy wonderful awful video.